I know I haven't been blogging much. Yes I am that busy. And you'd think that the work load would decrease after slogging for the O's...

To those who are doing their O' Levels this year... ENJOY LIFE AS MUCH AS POSSIBLE DON'T STUDY SO MUCH. That is my serious advice.

Anyway. Life has been good so far. So much has happened, in such a short time. I would say that because of certain events, I have changed. I don't know if its for the better or for the worst, but honestly I don't care because I am really happy with life right now.
I do get the occasional blues~ and my trademark pms-related boyfriend cravings, but apart from that, it is so freeing to be single.

Like... fucking freeing. Maybe one day I'll meet The Guy. One day... in about 2 years. Cuz I don't want to break-up with anybody anymore. So I'll make sure he's The One and we'll get married and have a beautiful kid and start a whole new chapter of our lives together.

But as for now, I'm free bitches.

And uh, as for the "no partying" pledge in my previous post? Scrap that, life's too short. I've about 9 months to enjoy my teenage years to the fullest. Sounds irresponsible and immature, I know. Responsible and mature will have to wait till I'm 20. It's way to depressing.

I have decided to stop going to clubs. I'm also cleaning out my iPod. Goodbye 3OH3!, Ke$ha, Pitbull and etc. I don't need them telling me to party my life away and live on loose morals. Listening to their music has made me not give a damn what I did, as long as I was having a good time. My dad was right- the music you expose yourself to will (in some way or another) have an influence on your set of morals and values.

I've replaced all that gunk with classical Spanish guitars, and YouTube covers. Spanish guitars are mucho seductive. Amazing how a simple instrument can evoke such deep emotions within you. It is my current earddiction.

Its about time I really took my classes seriously. I'm still disappointed with my animal anatomy & physiology grades. I wish I could retake them. What if the veterinary universities rejected my application based on that? I've been scouting university prospects over the net recently. I really really really hope I can get into the Royal Veterinary College in the UK, which is probably equivalent to Harvard. I am definately not brilliant enough to qualify.

I'm going hardcore now, and I pray that God will grant me the strength and heart to be as hardworking as possible. I've deactivated my Facebook, and hidden the twitter app on my Blackberry.
I must get into vet school. I have to. Being anything else is not an option. I want it so bad I can cry.

I need a change of attitude. Losing focus now could cost me my dream.

I can do this. With God all things are possible, right?

I really wanna turn it all off and tune out the world.

I thought I knew you.

I'm sick of falling for your lies. Should have never ever ever ever ever ever unblocked you.

Did you really think that you could manipulate our friendship just like that? I was worried sick, like a typical friend would be, nothing more. I kept thinking that if anything happened to you, it'd be my fault. No I wasn't thinking about how I couldn't live without you around, but rather how I couldn't live with the guilt.

I'm glad that you're going away for good. I am really tired of being stuck in this situation.
I don't want you. I don't think I will miss you- after what you did.
Just get out of my life.

xxx

The evening I spent on the beach while Justin Bieber was in town






Stop animal abuse. Stop the neglect. Stop the ignorance.
Start caring guyz, didn't God give us the responsibility to look after His living creatures?


CQ with breastfriend :}


Sushi Tei buffet with Iris :D




Caps made in Korea > caps made in China



We chilling outside Prada and saw these Pomeranians following a monk








I luv you SepSep

Life is pretty tough. But I'm tougher. Cuz God is toughest.

I need extra ultra wisdom and strength for the next 2 years to come. Human wisdom is folly and human strength is irrelevant.
I need God. I need the Bible.

I feel so... out of line. I can't survive this semester without God's guidance. I'd go crazy with worry about the future.

I went to church today.
.
I'll never forget what the pastor said:

 "The thoughts that you'll never be good enough to be a Christian- that you're just gonna sin and fail God again, that you're a hypocrite- they are lies from the devil. Satan wants you to stop worshiping God. He wants you to feel that you'll never measure up because you're too rotten inside so you'll shun away from God's grace and mercy."

Made me think a lot.

I've been obsessed with this show ever since I saw the ads and trailers on Starworld. I never did find the right time to follow episodes though. Now that it's the semester holidays I figured a little tv-serial marathon wouldn't hurt.

White collar is one witty crime serial. Unlike CSI and Criminal Minds, White Collar deals with frauds, con-men, art thieves and heists. Something not so... murderous. It's almost as impressive as Catch Me If You Can, which makes it so engaging.
The main character, Neal Caffrey, in his handsome suit-and-fedora outfit, striking blue eyes and lust-worthy features makes the series so much more irresistible.


I wanna boogie too


*Evaporates*
By the way, irony of it all is that he doesn't like guns very much. He has perfect aim and he knows how to fix up a silencer but he doesn't believe in them to get what he wants. 100 points for not using guns!
 















Just found out he plays for the other team. They have 3 children together. May they live happily ever after. Lucky bastard.


My hopes and dreams and desires and fantasies just went spiraling down the toilet.

"Do not compare yourself to others, for you will be bitter and vain. There will always be people above and below you."

Envy. Everyone struggles with it. People who "don't" struggle to not struggle with it. Or they choose to live in exile from this ever changing, ever demanding materialistic world. Like the monks... way before they started riding Mercedes and went out shopping at Gucci.

I get jealous a lot. I don't show it, because I play it cool. I keep it under control. But the desire to be as smart as the top student in my class, to look as good as that pretty girl, to have whatever they have, it gets to me.

I don't know how but somehow, society has managed to brainwash most of us to be the better person. Get better grades. Have a better life. Choose the better deal. Have a better fashion sense.
Do your best, as long as it is better than the average. If you fall short of the above average line, you didn't try hard enough/ you're just not good enough.
Since when did being average became another term for failure?

Kinda sucks how this system works. Driving all of us to attain more and more, because face it, we compare and we want to be better than average.

So many times I've wanted more for myself. So much so that it has become a kind of bad habit. Or an addiction to be precise.
Yes I am a shopaholic. Can't help wanting more clothes to make myself look better and keep appearances.

But it has to stop. I don't want to go splurging on "affordable" clothes that aren't so affordable if bought in bulk, and feel guilty afterwards because I've wiped my savings clean.

I got to the root of the problem. Envy. That's where all the shopping came from. Nothing but pure jealousy. Then I figured what spurred me on and I'm proud to say I've not bought a single magazine for the whole of this year.
Magazines are so powerful. They make you think you're admiring a certain celeb's style but in reality they're inviting you to want whatever she/he has.

Envy is a pretty powerful thing too. It's like a little seed planted in your heart. Whenever you compare your life with someone else, it grows. Before you know it, a vine's grown all tangled around your heart, and it will suck the life out of you.

Think about it, what kind of life do you have if you keep comparing it to others? Just a question for you readers to ponder upon (if any at all).

I am quite a shit job of a Christian.