I feel like screaming at the top of my lungs. But I have no energy for that. Life has sucked the life out of me. The days are increasingly exhausting. By night all I wanna do is to collapse. No not on my bed because that would mean waking up at 6am in the morning (which requires a lot of will power and strength and energy). And that would mean that I'd have to face another tiring day.

I feel like stabbing something, anything.

I feel like going for a nice cold swim in the big blue sea. I'll let the waves carry me far far away and let the waters absorb my energy till I have none left and then I'd sink under all the way down to the seabed. And I'd just lay there. Underwater. And if I'm lucky I might even meet Ariel the Mermaid and visit SpongeBob's pineapple.

I feel like letting go of everything. I don't wanna do this anymore. I don't wanna be involved in anything/ anyone. I just want to merely exist and accept my damnation.

But that won't do will it?