My weekdays are gone. It's 9-7 almost everyday and that's excluding travel time. With travel time it's 7:30am-9pm. Weekends are spent studying for the occasional tests and homework and e-learninng and projects. And church of course.

Everyday is exhausting and by Wednesday I just don't have the energy for anything at all. All I want to do is stay in bed and skip school. But that won't do if I'm aiming for at least a 3.8 GPA.

Sometimes I get so tired that I lose sight of the purpose in all this. I question my future and doubt my prospects. Do I really have what it takes to further my veterinary studies? Or will I fall short? What else can I do if I don't measure up? What about the monetary issues?
It all seem so unattainable to me.

And it scares me shitless cause being a Vet's my only goal in life. I've always wanted to work with animals and help treat their illnesses ever since I was a kid. And the fact that I just may not have what it takes...

It's so unfair that everyone are not equals in interllect. People like me, people with lower IQ and/or slower memory, have to work so much harder than the naturals.
Singaporean meritocracy my foot... 

But then again, nothing is really fair. Is it?

So you see, I'm spreading myself thin. I don't know how much more I can take but for now.
3.8 3.9 4.0

Goodnight y'all.