Won't go into details but I'll just say I've never experienced anything like that before in my entire life.  

And I feel rather... insufficient and not up to par but hey.

He is such a sweetheart. And all my friends are telling me to just go for it. But thing is, deep down I know that he's not the one I want right now.

I want somebody else. 

But that somebody is kinda flaky. I realized (from experience) that I can never take him seriously. His words are empty. All he gives are mixed messages. 

At least with S it's more stable. I can guess what his motives are, and I know that he means what he says. And I trust him. Kinda. 

In such situations, most people would tell you to follow your heart. But I'm afraid that if I continue doing so, there's nothing at the end but heartbreak.

So I'm just gonna listen to my brains instead of my heart for once, and consider giving S a shot.