Have you been at that point in your life where you realize life's just one big adventure- new people, new experiences, and so many things to discover. But in the midst of it all you find yourself at a loss of direction. You don't know where you're headed, you don't know where you want to go, hell, you don't even know what you want anymore.

I'm lost. I feel like I'm just floating through whatever life throws at me.

Ever felt that way? I've been feeling like that for ages.

My life is like one big lie. Some friends think I like to party and have fun a lot. But that is just a distraction. A weird kind of compensation for nothingness. I'm not really fun-loving. I'm just desperate for happiness.

Y'know I thought that being in this vet course would be the bombz because it was all I ever wanted to do in life. But why am I so god-damned unhappy. And my parents can never know that of course, on top of other things they must never know.

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